Do anything and I'll love ya.

Nicole brought up marriage. It's been making itself present lately. I told her that we've never talked about it. She thought I was kidding.
But it makes sense. In retrospect, 14 months and 4 days isn't when you think about getting married. It takes years and years of being together and living with each other constantly before even thinking about it. And plus it takes WORK. You have to be able to handle that, because you can't solve everything with divorce or plastic surgery. The thing I always tell Carl is: Give and Take. You have to be able to compromise, and you can't let pride get in the way. There's a reason it's one of the 7 deadly sins. Pride may make you a war hero, but it doesn't bring a father home.
Along with that, you have to have forgiveness. You will never get anywhere if you don't forgive. You can't hold every mistake and flaw above their heads and expect things to end well. I try my best with this, and some of you know that, but some of you also know that I'm not nearly mature enough to handle everything, and sometimes I get really upset. Granted, you need to know when to take a stand for yourself, but otherwise, let it go. A lot of things are completely trivial. They won't matter ten years from now; Hell, they probably won't even matter a few months from now.
But there's one more roadblock. As much as I don't think about it (which I try never to do), there is the fact that we may not be together all the way through high school and on to the rest of our lives. The fact is, high school relationships are usually very fickle and come and go, and it's entirely possible this flame might go out. Plus, we don't even have a clue as to what we're actually going to do once we get out of high school. What's the point of racing toward marriage if you haven't even gotten out of the gates yet? I mean, there's not a chance in my mind that it's going to end, because I won't give up that easily, but no one knows what the future holds. I'm not going to get my hopes up just so that they can crash even harder when he's gone.

All in all, I don't see the point in it. So why should we have even thought about marriage? We're 15. We've got our whole lives ahead of us to work these things out. There's always time, and let's face it, this isn't the time to do it. Not that I don't feel happy for those who have it in their heads that they'll get married; it's a strong possibility you might, but I'm not going to rush into it, and I shouldn't have to.