you are careening shamelessly into oblivion, where you will live alone with your chemicals and gin

1. I miss you. We were never especially close, and more often than not, when I'm with you I feel a little alienated because of that. We don't really have the same friends, and at the same time we do. They talk to me about you, and I'm sure they talk to you about me. I know it's a little strange to miss you even though we never really were friends, but that's the way I feel. I would like to hang out with you way more than I do, but I'm afraid that we are just too different to really make it work. 7th grade was fun and all, but even then we really had only one thing that brought us together.

2. What happened to you? I know it's just the way you are. Everyone does, but I think I can speak for all of us when I say that I'm getting pretty sick of it. It's always complaining about nothing at all. And then when people really try to care about you, you shut them out of your life. You want to make it better? Talk to someone about it. Talk to ME about it. I'm here to listen and I'm here to help, if you would only speak up.

3. This year, and last year has been... WOW. I can't even describe it. I guess, the most fun I've ever had with someone else. I see you all the time and yet it's still not enough. Our conversations always end up in the same place, but it's never boring. What? No. Yeah? What? No. No? Yeah. I'm so confused! And yet it makes perfect sense. Mostly because every word we ever say is godlike. Still wish we could have watched all those movies. We should do that over spring break. And then hang out in Mary's mom's laundromat. xD

4. AS;LKDFNA;LSKD;LFAKNSLDFKFGALSK! Gah! You're such a coolface! About everything. You are there for me when no one else is. Even when it's 1 in the morning and I am stoned out of my mind. We don't even really have to talk about anything and it would still be the most amazing conversation. And then your boyfriend... I think meeting him and the rest of his/your friends was the most life fulfilling thing I've ever done. And I don't regret anything I've ever done with any of you. Plus, although you may hate the things that your friends are into, you don't pass judgment. You voice your opinion, but you never push. And I thank you for that. I'm sure even you understand that eventually, we will all get back on track, and that right now, it does nothing to force it.

5. Ah! You were there also. That wonderful sunday night/ monday morning. Whether it was just by chance because you couldn't sleep, or you just had a feeling that you should get online, I don't really care, but you were there to talk to. And then you sent me all those pictures... You're such a bitch. I love you. A whole lot. You always know the right thing to say, and whether it's you actually helping with my problems, or just commenting on my situations... it's your opinion that I hold in some of my highest regards. So please, don't be afraid to tell me something is wrong. Lord knows I need it.

6. I LOVE YOU. Plain and simple. (I just thought you might want to be included.) ;D

7. Your boyfriend. Is. alskdnfasdlfkas;ldkf. How to describe him? Fun? A jackass? Possibly, no, probably retarded? I can't say I blame you for dating him, but do you think this is going to be different? Special? And then you both get upset when people (especially me and Carl) doubt your longevity. Even you know how it's going to end. I mean you can just tell if you're meant to be with someone. Think, in one year, or even one month, can you honestly see yourself being with him still? It's sort of a bleak way to look at a relationship, and I think you should be in it to have a good time, but don't get too committed, or try to change him or anything. He can only bend so far...

7 seems like a good number, and I don't really have anyone else to say things to. Some of what I've just written is pretty obvious who it is about. These are just basically things I've been thinking about a lot lately. I really miss all of you and I feel like I don't see any of you enough. We need a place, that we could just go to everyday we can and hang out and have fun. Or just talk. Or whatever. But seriously, I mean like everyday possible. Just all of us meet somewhere. Maybe in the summer at the Rec or something. Either way. Most of the people I know would love to be away from their house as much as possible (myself included), and this would be the perfect reason to. So seriously, consider it.