I just had the weirdest dream. We were in detroit playing in a park, and on our way home, someone told me that I didn't have any friends, so the next day on the bus, I brought a giant glass teletubbies mural (covered in hearts and magic wands?) and when those kids who told me I didn't have any friends got on the bus, i showed them that mural and somehow that proves that I have friends and the entire bus broke into song except these two guys who couldn't manage to rhyme their part of the song. So Katie and liz and I were making fun of them, when our bus stopped on the side of the school. We walked aways, and for some reason I was inside the mural (it was cylindrical), so I had to get out, and I leaned on a row of lockers (which magically materialized outside of the school), but when I jumped out the glass broke except one big piece that had the teletubbies on it. Then, we found a bolt door leading to the Aud (which is a recurring thing in my dream). It's sort of like a tiny steel door about 2 feet tall and wide that leads to a hallway which sort of resembles the catwalk. Anyway, they normally don't open this bolt door, but they said we should use our magic wands to open it. I think they were being sarcastic, but because of all the pieces of the teletubbies mural that were magic wands, people picked them up and pointed them at the door and it flew open! Everyone cheered (although I'm not sure where all these other people came from) and I went into the bolt door with what was left of my mural and then realized I had to climb down about three flights of vertical stairs, and then I woke up.






By the way, I was up every two hours puking my brains out last night. That was also really fun, and it seems my sister is sick like that too. I hope Carl isn't. I don't want to ruin his trip, but it seems like it passes over pretty Quickly. I don't feel anything right now, and I'm not sick in any other way either.

Whatever. I miss you guys.

The drops of rain, they fall all over.

You called right after I made that post- by coincidence or by design. You're right. I deserve so much more than I get. I'm becoming more like my father everyday. So passive, putting everyone else before himself...

I can't have those happy dreams for you tonight. It hurts so much. My lungs can't get enough air, I just keep breathing, and when it stops it feels like I'm dying. My lip keeps twitching and I can't stop shaking. It never hurt this much before. Why does it hurt so much? My face is wet. I just want it all to stop. I just want you. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Make it stop.





Help me

It's a wonderful life as the red and green breaks the black and white

I like Quickies. And I like being logged into all of your stuff because you didn't actually Quit Firefox. Even though I could log in to your stuff anytime I wanted to because I have all of your passwords so... yeah.




Curling was amazing! I used to mock them on tv because it seems like such a ridiculous sport (which it is) but damn is it fun! And hard (except I already knew that much)! And I like hanging out with your silly scouts xD



I'm not sure how successful I will be at getting you what you wanted, I only have $10 and sometimes Dillon won't bother for that little, and I'm not sure if Kramer will get it for me either. Plus I have the weather to consider and the fact that they have to get it to me will not really convince anyone. This would be easier if I had a car or it was summer, but unfortunately I don't and it's not.



Anyhow, I love you a lot, and miss me up in Kalamazoo (which I know you will). Actually about this time, you're just getting out of mass (if it was at 9 still, that is), so bye I guess. I love you.







I on the other hand, am going to my grandma's for Christmas. I figured it was the lesser of two evils. I'd rather have complete disappointment than spend a day with my mother and my sister(s?). So, goodbye to all of you too.

I don't blame you for being you, but you can't blame me for hating it

Eating oranges and typing are not good combinations. I should have thought this one out a little bit.

Anyway, I feel like a fever just broke. I'm all sweaty and hot, my hair is a mess, and I'm in my pajamas. But fortunately, I was just brushing a foot of snow off my trampoline. I woke up and realized no one was home. I looked out the back window and saw that my trampoline was about to break in half and I figured it would probably be a good idea to get rid of the snow. But, I didn't bother to take a shower or anything and I put on about 5 layers of clothes with 2 sweaters on top of my pajamas, and by the time I was done, I was about to keel over and die. It was a little bit much, but I didn't think that through all that much either.



But WHOO! NO school! I was so pissed this morning at about 3:30 because nothing had happened yet. I slept with my blinds open so that I could check on the storm progress. I was about to cry because I was so mad because I figured that we would still have school. So, in my frustration, I went back to sleep and at 5:30 when my alarm went off, I looked out the window and saw snow! I checked the news and saw school was canceled and then called Carl and told him not to wake up (even though I woke him up). Then I fell back asleep for about 5 hours.

That was my day, and it's only 11 in the morning right now. Imagine what will happen later.

I came down to crash and burn your beggar's banQuet

Dwight thought it was me who told his sister that he smokes. I told him that I don't talk to his sister ever and she never comes around our house and that I don't care about whether he does or doesn't. I also reminded him of the code: You don't talk about it. And besides, only a nonsmoker would rat out a smoker. It's as simple as that.



It was James who did it by the way. Because he's an asshole. He says he's going to complain to the school about him smoking at the bus stop, just because.


Like I said, I don't care.








Show call's at 6 right? I thought I had signed up for tomorrow's show. I thought I had signed up for everything that Carl had. Now that I think about it though, I vaguely remember that I signed up before he did and just picked random dates. I STILL HAVE TO TAKE THE LIGHT AND SOUND TESTS. Keep on me about that.