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Ten things about me (en vue de Natalie):

1. I can get over dramatic about certain things, as Liz said. It's harder to realize when I do it because I'm constantly analyzing everyone else, but there are plenty of times where I step back and tell myself to shut up and deal with it.

2. I am a compulsive liar. And I hate being caught in a lie, and consequently I will lie more to get myself out of it (hence, how it became compulsive. There was once a point where I was not good at lying, but I've found it gets easier as time goes by).

3. I am dependent. On people. Like Carl, for instance. I really want to see him all the time, but I am consciously aware of how much time I keep taking from him and part of the reason I don't see him more is because I don't always allow myself to, so that he can have his space.

4. I am the most rationally irrational person you will probably ever meet, and I laugh at pretty much everything. There is no way I can ever keep a straight face for more than 5 seconds. Try it, you'll see.

5. I have secrets. So many it's almost unbelievable. I'm trying to be more open about them, but there's still that part of me that always thinks that none of you even deserve to know. It was never any of your business when I first hid it, it's not your business now either. But being invulnerable and alone is not a good thing at all.

6. I purposely involve people in certain aspects of my life that I know they don't want to know about, just because I want them to worry and talk about me behind my back because I feel there's not enough drama in my life as compared to other people.

7. I'm annoying as fuck and even I know it. I can read the expression all over your face and all it says is: "Shut the fuck up and get the fuck away from me. Stop wasting my time."

8. Even when you don't think I am, I'm pretty much serious about everything I say. Most of the time I won't go through with half of it, but the thought is always processed in my head to the fullest. I am constantly thinking out every possible scenario for everything.

9. I say, "I know, " just to mask the fact that I didn't know because I hate feeling stupid and I hate needing people to explain things to me (This goes along with the compulsive lying. Just keep in mind that I probably have no idea what you're talking about, but I will never admit it, so don't ever question me).

10. I always pick up my cell phone, but never my home phone unless it's certain people. Even if I know the number, I won't pick up the land line. But I will always, always pick up my cell phone regardless of if I know the number or not. And it also really peeves me when someone calls my land line instead of my cell phone, even though they know my cell phone number, and then never call my cell phone after I am finished not picking up the other phone.