they hate if you're clever and despise a fool

Resolutions are normally saved for the beginning of the new year, but I believe they should be made at any point in your life when you feel you need to change. Now I know I've said some of these before, and it's guaranteed that I will say them again, but here they are:

1. Let it go
2. Be honest all the time
3. Get out of the house
4. Let loose
5. Be together


I'm trying to keep it short and sweet, so it's more accomplishable. Granted, each one of those are quite big tasks to undertake, so this small list could take me an entire year in and of itself.

P.S.
Allison: I hate your guts. You were okay to talk to at first, when I sort of felt sorry for you, but now you just piss me off. And your laugh makes my ears bleed. How can any guy possibly fall for you? Oh wait, they don't.
Lizzi: Sometimes you can be as over dramatic as Sahana (minus the love part) and everyone knows it, even yourself. I can't say I resent you for it because that's just the way you are, but you almost seem like a different person. Even Katie sometimes refers to you as old Liz and new Liz and I can't say I disagree.
Amanda: You're a good friend to me, but we haven't been in contact very much lately, and I'm not sure if I don't like it. I don't know if it's just the way I am lately or what, but maybe things will change. Then again, maybe they won't.
Natalie: You really are an asshole sometimes, but I love every minute of it. It's never boring to be around you, and there aren't many bad things I can say.
Dan: I really, really dislike you. A lot. Your always touching, and I've noticed this since the first day I actually met you. You like to have your hands and arms all over people (well, I shouldn't say people, more like girls). And that is one of my personal pet peeves. If you're not my boyfriend, or one of my girl friends, then DON'T TOUCH ME.
Mike: Honestly, I don't like you much either. I almost feel bad for it, but I treat you exactly the way I treated Andrew. You can get me drugs, you're okay to talk to at lunch, but in general I don't like being around you. I'm really actually glad that you're graduating so that I won't have to see you around school anymore.
Jon and Company; Ryan, Jp, and Company: You guys are all really awesome to hang out with, and we don't do it enough. I miss you guys and we need to hang out one day. Although Ryan can be a little... je ne sais quoi, mais je ne l'aime pas vraiment quelque fois.

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So, I decided that I'm very tempted to die. Just to see what it's like. I don't know what's going to happen and it makes me curious. I would never do it, but I would really like to try. I mean, do I simply cease to exist? Or is there really an afterlife? Do I reincarnate or do I just simply float around amongst people as a ghost? I think the last one intrigues me the most. I don't know if you noticed in one of my recent posts, I want to be a ghost; to exist in non-existence. It just seems like it would be more interesting to go on living next to someone instead of with someone. I would never EVER actually do it, because, I would miss him. I would miss all of you, and you would miss me. I could never do it because of you all. I'm not that selfish. And also, what if I'm wrong? Then where would I be? Dead. And you all would be alone. It's just not something I want to risk; I've never been a gambler,

"But a bullet sounds the same in every language."