i hate to break it to you but being a coward is not a legitimate career

is it right to admit i was wrong?
then why does it feel so horrible?
why does it hurt to just admit that i need help? that i need to rely on someone else to fix my problems? why do i feel like i have to do it all on my own? why do i feel like i can do it all on my own? i know i cant. i know i need help. someone help me please! i need help! i cant save myself as much as i want to.

i am helpless, and i am alone, and i am scared

but i dont want your help. i dont need your help. i can do it on my own. with a miracle and some duct tape i suppose. but i can do it. no. i could do it. there is a difference. im not sure of what exactly it is, but i know there is one, and that it is a big difference.