I will be waiting for you
To fall on your knees and beg for mercy
Will you fall on your knees?
i want to be like katie and sahana and just pour my heart and soul out here, in fact that was the intention of getting a blog in the first place, but i feel like i have to watch what i say just like in real life. I guess its the part of my heart that is the brick wall, afraid of getting hurt, afraid of letting others in. It's not healthy, i know. And i dont really have anyone to talk to in person either. I think im going to change that. I dont rely on my friends, my boyfriend, as much as i know i should. I know i cant hold myself up all the time, but im just not the kind of person who would let someone else bear my weight. I just want to be able to go to Carl when i have a problem, with anything. That's how i want it to be, that's how it should be. He should be my best friend as well as my boyfriend, and right now he's not. well not really. he is, to some extent my best friend, but not as much as i would like him to be. Granted, there are some things i wouldnt tell even to the best of my friends.
everyone has secrets like those, i just happen to have more of them.
sure tell yourself that
shut the fuckme up. yes they do.
i want to talk to a deaf person sometimes. so that i can say all i need to without letting them hear it. so i will still have the satisfaction of telling another person, and the comfort that no one else actually has to know about it.
Does anyone of my friends happen to have sudden hearing loss?
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I DO!
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