concert was amazing
my dad hated it
i expected that. i told him it was going to be pretty hard core. he's the one who said he'd be glad to drive me. i guess i have to thank him for that. i know carl did. and opie is pretty grateful. speaking of opies, he owes me like 50$. for the concert last year and this year. so that's like 40$, plus i lent him 15$ to buy a shirt, so like 55$. so even though im broke, i wont be for long. when his mom gets the income tax check, i'll be rolling in- exactly what i had before the concert.
which is pretty funny.
actually not really. i'm just a loser.
i decided that i'm feeling different lately. not as in sick or anything, i just feel like i've changed a whole lot, and it's really clashing with the part of me that hasn't. i dont want to change. i hate change, and yet i cant live without it, i cant stand routine. it kills me inside you know?
i dont know if i like the way i've changed. i feel different about certain things. i've sort of lost a few friends because of it. not that anything bad has happened, i just sort of stopped talking to them. it's bad i know. i actually feel like i have become less social and i have been coming to find that i dont know as much about anything anymore. talking to all the other social butterflies i know and i found out that i wasnt aware of even the most obvious of things around me. it really sucks, but i dont really care. maybe that's why i've let it happen? because the old me would never have let me slip up on the social happenings, but then again, the old me was happier, oblivious.
you know what time it is?
confession time.
now if only i had anything to confess to any of you. which isnt true. i do have some things. actually quite a lot of things. the new me is just not able to say them. because i care, i think, what you think. if that makes sense. it's also really vain now that i have read over what i just typed. but i guess you can deal with it. i know i am.
i have nothing more to say i guess. i mean i do have things to say, i just wont say them here. it would be better to say them in person. and i probably will. and i will probably lose some more friends because of it, but what happens, happens.
ill go with the flow and flow right out of here.
1 comment:
I know EXACT-FUCKING-LY what ur talking about,
You dont want it to change but you do at the same time,
You dont like change but you're forced to embrace it,
You hate losing friends, But they just keep slipping away with the ess time you have to talk with them,
You Hate having to move on, But you have to,
I love you,
SOO much
I'm totally commenting you from oozamalak xD
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