Jan 5, 2010

I want to say it's to me to change the world

I rearranged my room yesterday after school. I decided that I didn't like it the way it was anymore. It didn't feel like my room. It felt like I was living in a rabbit pen (understandably). Well, now it's mine again. I feel like I've gained more space, but at the same time I feel like I've lost some. However, I'm definitely more organized.

Still not motivated.
My art project is almost done because I found a good set of oil pastels and fixed all of the mistakes in my picture. Which is fantastic because I've been struggling to fix the same part over and over again for the entire week or so before break, and yesterday, getting about zero progress from when class began to when it ended. There are a few final touches I'll need, but that shouldn't take long at all. Our next project is something with cartoons. Hilarious because, the entire point of that class is to draw realistically, without outlines, and NOT cartoon-ish. Mr. Dimmer also claims that we will have a second project before the semester ends, but I feel like that is wishful thinking.

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I still haven't really done any math homework. I mean to, I just don't end up actually doing it. I suppose I'm just waiting until this semester is over with so that I can be done with that class. The final is going to obliterate me though.

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I sat in the back of the bus today, where all of the annoying sophomore guys sit. There weren't really other seats on the bus, and Chad/Ryan and Nate sit back there, and also, I couldn't give a fuck if they want me there or not. Anyway, I sat down and the kid in the seat started complaining, "Really? Why here? There's like, a million other seats over there!" "So? I sat here. What's the matter, are you gay? Don't like girls?" So he scoffed and turned around and basically pouted. And then the kid across from me said, "Who the hell are you?" and before I could say anything, Nate kind of put him back in his place and told him that he needs to have a little respect, which I appreciated. Sometimes I feel like Nate doesn't like me very much.

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Overall things so far haven't been too terrible at school. I mean of course I hate doing work, and I hate most of the people that I have to interact with, but I can look at it and see that it's only 6 hours out of my day, and even more so, each class is only one hour out of my day. Sometimes I just need perspective on things.
The one thing I must say I've hated about school so far, is that it's so ingrained into my system that even after a two week break, waking up at 6 in the morning, running on less sleep than I should, didn't feel unnatural. In fact, on the way to school yesterday, I almost forgot about the fact that we had even taken a vacation at all.



Well, nighty night sleep tight.
I'm hungry, and I'm gonna eat.

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