You know I'm a liar. I've admitted it numerous times before, and I suppose I am admitting it again now. You all have enough common sense to know when I'm not being truthful, even if I don't spell it out for you.
So it begs the question then, why have none of you responded to the previous post? Do you simply ignore me when I ask things of you? Do you only pay attention to the things I say when you want to copy my ideas? I asked little of you. I've waited one week. I figure that even those of you who don't check other people's blogs all the time would have seen it by now. And yet, not one of you humored me. Not even the people who I've obviously lied to the most.
I could lie to myself and say that maybe you haven't read my blog yet. But I know that it's not true. I know that most of you check every single day.
It leaves me baffled, and I must admit a little hurt, that when I try to be honest for once and come clean about my past and no one cares to even listen. Society as a whole is confusing, but I would have figured that my support group might actually support me. Instead, I am ignored for more trivial things.
Perhaps I am being a bit selfish. I mean, all I ever talk about is change, for better or for worse. How am I expected to believe that you sit here day to day and read the same bullshit over and over again, just rephrased? Clearly I am the one who is at fault right? Expecting someone to actually take initiative and follow my instructions is most obviously a ludicrous thing to think any of you were capable of.
There is no use to apologize. Oh, I was going to comment today, but...
Save it. I don't want to hear it. That is an even more bold-faced lie than any I've ever told you. The fact of the matter is, you didn't do it. Plain and simple. You've had plenty of time, but I suppose just not enough reason.
Anyway, thanks for reading, if any of you did. It's hard to try and be honest when no one cares. Maybe I was better off lying. My suggestions to you: don't expect me to be honest with you now.
3 comments:
Out of sheer honestly, darlin, I could really care less if you've lied to me. I definitely haven't catched it so I didn't know how to respond to that, although I hypocritically did find it interesting that no one else did either. Maybe your lies aren't that apparent.
And I really don't understand why you're getting so worked up about it.
you seem surprised. the only way to get someone to respond is to ask them about themselves. otherwise no one really gives a shit. which is sad, i guess. i got over it.
i won't bother explaining why i hadn't commented because it doesn't make any difference. you're pissed because no one paid attention when you asked for something. which is understandable. i don't blame you. but it doesn't make sense for you to get so worked up over it. you didn't do anything wrong, so quit stressing yourself out over it. whether or not you decide to be truthful or not shouldn't depend on whether or not you think anyone cares. you know?
i can tell when you're lying to me because you get this look in your eyes and your whole demeanor changes. you almost get a little defensive, like you're waiting for me to figure out that you're not telling the truth. i always just go along with it because i figure that if you wanted me to know the truth you'd tell me.
i dont know what youve lied to me about and to be perfectly honest, most of it im sure ive forgotten about. im an extremely selfish person and chances are if it didnt directly affect me, it wasnt monumental enough to stay in my memory.
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