I comb the crowd and pick you out. My mouth moves too fast for you to figure it out.

It starts eyes closed, to fingers crossed, to "I swear," I say.

Amanda, Lizzi, don't even worry about what happened.
Liz, as much as you want to know, I know you don't, and just by hearing that you can probably assume what it was about. If you really want to know, you can press me later, but you probably wouldn't want to.

It's normal for me to start feeling bad like that. It's called 'down time.' But seriously, don't worry. I'm fine.

So, Carl is going to be gone for a week. And here's the part where you say, "Oh god, Andrea's gonna start ranting about how she's so lonely and depressed and that she misses him and blah, blah, blah." But I'm not. Sure, it will be a long time, especially for the summer. It's only been 5 days since the spree started and it already feels like it's been here forever.

Tomorrow will be hard though. Fireworks are kind of our thing, you know? I mean, after what happened last year and all. He's not going to be here this year, and it kind of puts a damper on things. The hardest part will be explaining to my dad why I don't want to come with him. I mean, it's something we've done ever year, since... forever. It's not that he'll make me go or something, or even interrogate me about it, but I feel bad for missing out.

The only thing is, what to do during the fireworks? I sure as hell am not going to go to my mom's house just to get away from them.

Put your ear to the speaker, choose love or sympathy, but never both.

Anyways, I feel bored. I guess summer has fully hit me. I can finally sleep in late because I realize that I actually don't have anywhere to go. It doesn't feel like the weekend anymore, it feels like "I am finally free to do anything and everything I've wanted to do and there really are no time constraints." Now, when I make plans, I don't focus everything around "This Saturday," or "Next weekend." It can be tomorrow, or tonight, and no one objects to it. It feels... really nice, and I'm sure I don't need to explain to you all because you're all picking up what I'm putting down.

The only problem is finding enough things to fill my time with.
Maybe I could just spend three consecutive days at someone's house? xD

To the love, I left my conscience pressed
Through the keyholes I watched you dress
Kiss and tell
Loose lips sink ships.

You know I wouldn't want it any other way

I've been a little frustrated with the fact that people haven't been updating so frequently. I mean, I just figured that with summer being here and things are winding down, that you would get bored and fill your time by writing about something.

I really can't blame you all for not updating, it's your choice whether you do or not, and it's not like your life depends on it or anything, and I'm sure the fact that I want to know what you have on your mind isn't going to sway you much. It's just that I'm sure you get frustrated with the fact that some people don't update as frequently as they used to, or rather, as you would like them to, so I'm sure you understand what I'm feeling in this. I just wish you would act upon it. You have to give to receive, and I've been giving a lot. Mostly because I enjoy writing down my thoughts and I enjoy the fact that I have an audience, but still, I give.

Now, just because I write this post about how you all never update, I don't want to see everyone having a new post. I want you to update when you feel you should, not because I tell you to, it doesn't give me much to go on if you're just apologizing. But it would be nice if you would just update more frequently. I can't expect you to be like me and update every day or every other, but maybe once a week rather than once every two or three. Or even twice a week. Just give me, everyone, something to look forward to.

I know your social lives can change drastically in one day, but we can't know what's going on if you don't tell anyone. Not that you should tell everyone everything. No one likes loose lips.
But please, at least let us know what's going on. You can't leave us in the dark.



So, keep what I've said here in mind next time. Try to write a little more. At the very least it can't hurt.

I've really been on a bender and it shows

I can't help but feel sorry for her. I know, it's not like me, and I know, I really shouldn't. After all that's happened, I can't help but to notice that she's actually hurt by this.

And, for some reason that I don't quite understand, it hurts me.


Why did things have to get so difficult?

What do you say, just you and I, south on the 5, for a couple of days?

I feel so good right now. It's unbelievable. I love this so much. I love you all so much. I love EVERYTHING. Especially Carl.

Thanks for trying/doing ;)

I miss you all. I don't see you guys enough. Soon! I will see you at the spree! GOOD GOOD.




Why the fuck am I talking to myself and answering in typing?
I think I've finally lost my mind.



Therapy on thursday. At 9:30 in the morning. What a drag.

But you guys rock. All of you. Seriously.


NATALIE: I owe you a well spent $5.

Why you're such a long face? Why you're looking down?

Fun fun day with naticat and adam.

:)

wish you were there. wish we were going to the drive-in tonight.


glad i found someone who has PROMPT service xD.
now i won't have to wait like a week.